Living With Depression

I'm a teen living with depression.

I'm a mentally insane teen living with depression.

Right now, my depression has subsided. But I can tell it's just waiting in the shadows-waiting to consume me again.

Because some symptoms still linger: irritibility, physical fatigue, and other things I can't remember just now. But I have the bad habit in bottling up my emotions so nobody knows when I'm annoyed.

Oh, and why am I under the impression I'm insane? Well, I suffer from hallunications. Not like when somebody's high or overheated, but when somebody's mental. See, bugs and other insect like creatures are my worst fear and I think I see them constantly. And when they're actually real, I'm relieved it's not my mind playing tricks and freaked out because it's an actual bug. Eew.
And perhaps even more taunting, I see old friends in the faces of total strangers. Friends whom I feel nostalgic about and whom I desperately miss and want to see.

I'm insane in other ways, but I'll save those for another time.

Back to the depression thing-I've found out my trigger is school. Yup, that's right-and I have to go every day. Ugh. But since summer vacation started, my depression experienced a dramatic decline and it's been that way even now that classes have resumed. So that's awesome. =)

For those of you out there who also suffer from this draining condition, I suggest talking to people who have always been there for you, who could never judge you. And more importantly, do some serious self-analyzing. Try figuring out why you're depressed. Take note of what times you feel most low. And if you can, take a break from it. If not-well-I'm not a psychriast (I didn't spell this right, did I?) or anything-just a teen who's under the impression she's wiser than most of the people she knows.

So, hope y'all had a nice summer and see ya whenever.